Everyday when I come across something in related to you, I miss you even more. I hope there's such thing as magic so that you can appear in front of me as and when you can. Actually it's not that I don't want to sleep early sometimes. It's just that i am missing you so bad that i wish to spend every second for as long as i can endure. Last night i am really glad that i can openly tell you stuff. This way things will get more comfortable with. Tonight I'm going to tell you about what I wrote on a ball. And I will sing you a random song.
To tell you the truth, i missed you so bad to a point that i wish that you could just appear and disturb me/poke my cheeks making me unable to sleep. I really won't mind =)
One more truth, i bought something as a bulk today which i would really wanna share part of it with you because i guess you will really like it. I really hope you can put the "dont buy you gift" aside and accept this little gift from me. It can be useful to you or be useless in my drawer. So give it a chance? Anyway its a stitch iphone casing! I believe you will really love it. Then again its not that im stubborn and don't listen to you, it's just that i can buy in bulk at a cheaper price and can maybe make you smile, so I'm killing 2 birds with 1 stone.
Love your smile, misses you even more each day. Wait for me tonight k? (All treats")
Tuesday, May 7, 2013
30/12/2012
Geographically further, but the feeling of missing you never fades. I may have lied to you just now but I have already explained everything to you. I hope that whenever something happens it does make it in a way that in future it does not happen again. Im glad that you do give me another chance to be transparent with you in future. Every bad thing which happens may not be as bad as you think, look on the brighter side and you will realise that it does kick some of the bigger problems in future away.
The reason i why i want to explain so much to you is because i care. The word love is not just by using the mouth, some sacrifices, effort, care, patience and understanding is required. I know that some things i said earlier were selfish. Look at it in another angle and you will know i'm just preventing some contaminants from contaminating us. Anyway it's the last time im lying to you just now. Everything has its first time and last time. No start = no end.
I have something to confess to you, before you tell me that I'm not allowed i buy you stuff, i already bought you something. Then again, I'm being transparent with you, otherwise i won't have tell you. I do hope you can accept it without ignoring me.
Still with love even at bkk!(all treats)
Still waiting to send you goodnight message(kiss)
Miss you
The reason i why i want to explain so much to you is because i care. The word love is not just by using the mouth, some sacrifices, effort, care, patience and understanding is required. I know that some things i said earlier were selfish. Look at it in another angle and you will know i'm just preventing some contaminants from contaminating us. Anyway it's the last time im lying to you just now. Everything has its first time and last time. No start = no end.
I have something to confess to you, before you tell me that I'm not allowed i buy you stuff, i already bought you something. Then again, I'm being transparent with you, otherwise i won't have tell you. I do hope you can accept it without ignoring me.
Still with love even at bkk!(all treats)
Still waiting to send you goodnight message(kiss)
Miss you
29/12/2012
| From: | JiaHao Tan (jiahao_tan_1990@hotmail.com) |
| Sent: | 29 December 2012 00: 25AM |
| To: | x_jolene@hotmail.com |
Upstairs pigeon send me a letter say that you are hungry and haven't had dinner so I went out to buy your favourite tom yum for you. I know you won't come down and collect it from me so I didnt bother to ask you also. Instead I hang it on a railing at 6 and half story. I didn't know you are out, but I hope you do feel that Im sincere. I think by the time you read this mail the food had already turned bad already. But that doesn't matter. Though the food can never be eaten anymore but my love to you still won't fade. Theres no expiry date or limit for love. In approximately 7 hours Im gonna fly to bkk to meet my PU friends already. Before I go I will send you a bye bye message and when I arrive I will find everyway to get a SIM card with data plan. But if I fail to do so please pardon me for not being able to send you email for 2 nights. If that really happens I seriously do hope you can give me 5mins on the phone and I can talk to you, you don't have to reply me anything or talk to me. Just listen to what I want to say to you.
I have been worrying about the SIM card issue for the past week since I booked my air tickets. I even brought along 3 phones which can accomodate all kinds of SIM card. I really do not want to lose contact with you
I am the kind of people who will miss home when Im staying at somewhere else. During NS, when I miss home my buddies will come tell me jokes to cheer me up. But in bkk and when I misses you, you are the only one who can cheer me up. So be there to cheer me up k?
Lastly I will be hunting for your friends and I will bring back as many friends for you as possible k?
Goodnight(every treats)
Love you(kisses)
I have been worrying about the SIM card issue for the past week since I booked my air tickets. I even brought along 3 phones which can accomodate all kinds of SIM card. I really do not want to lose contact with you
I am the kind of people who will miss home when Im staying at somewhere else. During NS, when I miss home my buddies will come tell me jokes to cheer me up. But in bkk and when I misses you, you are the only one who can cheer me up. So be there to cheer me up k?
Lastly I will be hunting for your friends and I will bring back as many friends for you as possible k?
Goodnight(every treats)
Love you(kisses)
28/12/2012
Im glad that I can sense your presense again. These 48 hours is the toughest period of time ever. I had never experienced anything like this before, and will never ever wanna experience this again. Im so down that I can't concentrate on work, I can't think. My RAM is all jammed up with you. I seriously don't know what happened which makes you ignore me. But Im no longer interested to know anymore. Its already the past. What I can do now is guai guai and listen to you. I promise I won't do things my way again. Like i mention before, I don't need any treats or whatsoever. Being able to get in contact with you through whatsapp is enough already. After all these ignoring and stuff I have finally learnt how to be easily contented.
I was even thinking that I should make a TV program like those survival kind of shows. And I will tell stories of how hard the 48hours was. How much I miss you and how much I wish you would come back.
I even tried to make myself busy by going out riding so that it would ease the pain, but it seems like it won't work. I almost got into an accident for trying to be funny. I was so scared that after that I stopped being funny already. Im so worried that I will die and I won't be able to wait for you anymore.
Im gonna stop messing around with bikes so much already, I find it kind of not worth it. I just want to be home safely to use my phone to chat with you.
Last but not least, you really made my day today!(all the treats)
I was even thinking that I should make a TV program like those survival kind of shows. And I will tell stories of how hard the 48hours was. How much I miss you and how much I wish you would come back.
I even tried to make myself busy by going out riding so that it would ease the pain, but it seems like it won't work. I almost got into an accident for trying to be funny. I was so scared that after that I stopped being funny already. Im so worried that I will die and I won't be able to wait for you anymore.
Im gonna stop messing around with bikes so much already, I find it kind of not worth it. I just want to be home safely to use my phone to chat with you.
Last but not least, you really made my day today!(all the treats)
27/12/2012
| From: | JiaHao Tan (jiahao_tan_1990@hotmail.com) |
| Sent: | 27 December 2012 00: 45AM |
| To: | x_jolene@hotmail.com |
I got zero contact with you for over 24hours, it was long. Really long. All I can do is use my lil intelligence to try to picture what happen exactly so that it can explain your disappearance. I know you asked me to move on and I guess the reason for that is you don't wanna hurt me? If that is so do you think by asking me to move on won't get me hurt? Theres no unit of measurement for hurt or love. So just let me continue? and in the end if it turns out ugly i will still be hurt. Hurt more or hurt less also is hurt. Removing of stitch? I don't think I will do that, even if I dont get to see/hear you I still wanna remember you. At least when I don't get to see/hear you the stitch is the nearest thing to you.
I just hope we can just continue like what we used to. I no longer need any treats or whatever cuz whatever you gave can never replace your presense.
I really don't know what else to say already, Im really very very lost today. Hope you understand. So come back k?
Whatever i do wrong, im sorry.
I'll wait for you, miss you(any treats you want)
Goodnight(any treats you want)
I just hope we can just continue like what we used to. I no longer need any treats or whatever cuz whatever you gave can never replace your presense.
I really don't know what else to say already, Im really very very lost today. Hope you understand. So come back k?
Whatever i do wrong, im sorry.
I'll wait for you, miss you(any treats you want)
Goodnight(any treats you want)
26/12/2012
| From: | JiaHao Tan (jiahao_tan_1990@hotmail.com) |
| Sent: | 26 December 2012 00: 23AM |
| To: | x_jolene@hotmail.com |
Its seems like this is the only way I can get closest to you now. I know what happened and i tried everyway to prevent it from happening but it doesn't turn out my way. You have already made a decision to be with your bf for sometime already and therefore no further decision is needed. You don't have to worry that you may hurt me or im gonna get hurt. If im really hurt its just another time getting hurt. From the start I already know about the worst case scenario that would happen and I accepted it. To many, im just wasting my time and thats because theres still many who don't know how to love. I have my reasons for leaving early just now because I know the fire has started and I do not want it to spread. I know you are gonna be pissed off with this again and gonna ignore me for decades, but do understand my intention. You are the first person that is my so called easy to communicate. I really do enjoy chatting with you on whatsapp sending you treats and stuffs. If whatsapp can ever be used again I hope to chat with you again. I will wait for you tonight, I always feel something missing not being able to send you goodnight message. Then again everynight by 1251 I will send you a mail. And if i really don't get to chat with you in the day anymore I hope you will open you inbox and read what I really wanna tell you.
Give me a last chance to explain my problems with you tonight?
Give me a last chance to explain my problems with you tonight?
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